Dear my son in the future,
I want to just leave this writing to let you know the true reason why and how your mother met your father, and G-d sent you down to us.
So, why did Mommy leave her excellent job with possibly the greatest bosses and coworkers in Yokohama, where career opportunities were everywhere on hand? Why did Mommy move to the coldest town in Hokkaido with less than 4000 residents? And then came all the way down to Kyushu, where the wages and the work conditions are the worst in Japan?
That’s because Mommy thought that it would be wiser to run away while she could, so she wouldn’t have to mourn and groan for the rest of her life in case something bad had actually happened, just in case.
Mommy took a refuge to this small city where she met Daddy. And this is a place so full of, and stuck with the old-minded people, information and sense of value. Mommy still feels like one of those Heike fugitives here in Kyushu. But Mommy was blessed with the meeting with Daddy, who was so kind and loves Mommy unconditionally, and G-d blessed us with the new life; You.
Mommy sometimes finds herself preparing her mind for the probably soon-coming disaster of mega-earthquakes that would force Japan to just go “out of order” as a country, as she watches your face in the morning, sleeping just like an angel.
Mommy used to live in Sendai, Miyagi, and often visited the lowest mountain in Japan. There was a stable with some really cute horses nearby, and Mommy loved going to watch and touch them at weekends. (Though she couldn’t ride them!)
Once, Mommy’s parents considered buying a house there, but the local real estate company staff told us that it was possible for that area to be washed away by Tsunami altogether in case a big earthquake occurred.
That was in 2006, when Mommy just got back from the UK. And it was five years before the Great East Japan Earthquake. Mommy’s parents took that advice seriously, and decided to buy a house elsewhere. It was a common recognition among the people who lived in Miyagi (and probably Tohoku), that soon the big earthquake was to come. That area was, in fact, washed away by Tsunami in 11th of March, 2011. Mommy’s heart still breaks when she thinks of what had happened to those cute cheerful horses…
Also, Mommy spent four years of her University life in Shizuoka. Every night before going to bed, she checked a pair of trainers and a rucksack packed with emergency items were put right beside her bed, and simulated the shortest and the fastest evacuation route to the mountain behind that was covered by bamboo trees in her mind. That should have taken no more than five minutes to climb up there, and she often actually ran that route for exercise. Shizuoka is supposed to have Tokai Earthquake anytime now. But it has been twenty years and still it hasn’t occurred yet. Creepy.
However, earthquakes can’t just disappear by time. The energy is accumulated, and the plate is strained with greater force, thus causing the next eruption of energy to be greater. G-d forbid, but the later the Tokai Earthquake comes, the greater the damages could be.
If the worst happens, the Tokai, Tonankai, and Nankai Earthquakes would be all joined together, which could lead to another big earthquake that occurs right under Tokyo area. This nightmare scenario may even trigger the Mt. Fuji’s volcanic eruption, which is what we know from the past data, unfortunately going to be the likely case. Plus the explosion of nuclear power plants? Oh no, we don’t want that, ever… But the damages are inevitable from Kanto to Shikoku areas on the Pacific Ocean side, where the main artery of Japan’s industry is. Tokyo, Osaka and even Kochi would be devastated and totally paralysed.
So, are Hokkaido and Kyushu safe? Unfortunately, not having direct damages from the quakes, fires and radioactive leak doesn’t mean we can escape the nightmare of central Japan mega earthquakes. It would destroy the logistics, which means the movement of medical items, food supplies and people are all affected. The whole country will be “out of order”. Remember, airports and ports will be congested like never before, and we can’t rely on Yamato, Sagawa and Yubinkyoku anymore in such cases.
Mommy had hard time in Hokkaido and Kyushu since 2012, after she left Yokohama and everything she loved and treasured.
Yet, she doesn’t want to live in that beautiful seaside in Kanagawa where she spent her childhood and one of the happiest time of her life.
Mommy can’t just think, “When I have to die, I will just die! It’s not hard to die! Let’s live happily until the Earthquake actually comes!”
You know Mommy’s personality, right? She just can’t give up so instantly.
And if she lost all her family members and she survived… I don’t think that she could live until the death ceases her pain naturally.
Mommy respects the strong people who can say that they want to enjoy their life just until the Earthquake actually takes place in those shiny beautiful cities of Kanto and even Kansai. Mommy is confident that she is not strong enough to live on her own after losing family members and then keep fighting with and suing the nuclear power plant or the Japanese government.
What are those people who lost their families in Tohoku doing now?
And how are the Hibakushas, the victims of the atomic bombs of Hiroshima and Nagasaki still suffering today carrying their mental and physical damages from the past?
Mommy has met and seen and talked and felt so many people’s suffering in many different places.
Life is hard.
And Mommy doesn’t have much more capacity left to bear extra pain in life from now on.
If Mommy can do anything, even something small, to reduce the risk of losing her loved ones, she will do her best. That’s all. Even if that meant she had to leave her dream job and money and place she loved so much.
That’s why Mommy is still alive here in this poor land, building and protecting small happiness each day, loving you and your Daddy.
She doesn’t want to go back to her rich shiny city life of Yokohama.
Of course, she feels nostalgic about it all at times though…
Mommy chose the place to live by herself before she was forced to choose by natural disaster.
And you know, sometimes the life gets ironic, and life can be taken away so instantly from a joke-like reason.
But if such case was her gift from G-d, she would take it with gratitude.
For her, trying her best to avoid or mitigate the damages she could imagine was the most important issue.
Today’s Mommy doesn’t possess the money, stylish dresses from favourite brands, a job that provides her great motivation and satisfaction with business trips and time off for a vacance in Europe every year.
Instead, Mommy is now blessed with your angelic face, sleeping next to her as she wakes up in the morning.
You are the greatest gift from G-d.
Hashem did not only give Mommy some painful lessons, but You, such a beautiful gift.
Life is a mystery, and that’s why it is so interesting.
What’s gonna be next?
Mommy’s life with you is scary at times, but full of excitement and happiness too.
Spend each day with Mommy and Daddy.
Mommy loves you, forever, and ever.